Kristin (kristypadalecki) wrote,
Kristin
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Sad Anniversary

Today is a very difficult day for me. This, unfortunately marks the 1-year anniversary of my beautiful dog Sara's passing. D`: I can't believe it's been an entire year already that she has been gone from our lives. She was with us for fourteen wonderful years and I will never forget her dark, loving eyes and the loyalty & devotion she bestowed (especially on my Mom). It was a very difficult and trying last few weeks we had with her. She had developed a rare condition in her intestine that caused the inability to break down and digest proteins. As a result she was having bouts of diarrhea, vomiting, losing a lot of weight/muscle mass and her hair was beginning to fall out.

We did everything humanly possible to treat her, taking her to a specialist for an endoscopy and that's when they concluded what was wrong with her. We kept her at this hospital for about 3 or 4 days and they had her on fluids & proteins, but she was still having gastrointestinal problems. They said they couldn't keep her there just for that so she was released back into our care (she never should have been!) That night she got worse and refused to eat anything, and that was so not her, she loved her food. We rushed her back to the hospital where she was put back on the same treatment but it was too late. A few days later she died, early in the morning, before my family could get there. =(

It was an experience I surely never want to go through again, as I still have post traumatic stress from living that nightmare. There is not a day that goes by that I don't stop to think about her and the sweet things she would do. I would give anything if things could have turned out differently and feel a tremendous amount of guilt that she had to suffer for so long the way she did. I realize there was nothing more we could have done, but those "what if" thoughts run circles in my brain all the time.

I try to not let the grief of losing her bring me down to that depressive state I was in after it happened, and am trying to spend this day reflecting on her life and the good memories my family and I will always have of our beloved Sara. She will live on in my heart forever! <3


I apologize for the poor quality of these pictures, they were taken with my cellphone. I still have to get my scanner hooked up so I can show you some nicer ones!








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